Fat Girl,

Celebrate the little victories.

July 3, 2015 2 Comments

These are such small things. Such lit­tle vic­to­ries. What right have I to cel­e­brate them?

The same right I have to cel­e­brate the vic­to­ries of all of my friends and fam­i­ly who deal with chron­ic ill­ness­es, phys­i­cal and men­tal. Small vic­to­ries are vic­to­ries. Med­ica­tion that allows me to escape the nev­er-end­ing cycle of pan­ic is use­ful. Wrap­ping myself in soft, warm cloth is calm­ing and sooth­ing. Touch­ing my skin and putting make­up on with gen­tle, lov­ing hands is cru­cial on days where I strug­gle to love myself. Such a short amount of time of my day, and yet now I am calm. I can think. I am okay.

Cel­e­brate the lit­tle vic­to­ries. Always, cel­e­brate the lit­tle vic­to­ries.

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Cleaner bezier curves in typography.

July 2, 2015 3 Comments

I do a lot of cus­tom typog­ra­phy and let­ter­ing in my graph­ic design and per­son­al cal­lig­ra­phy work. I aspire to cre­ate vec­tor images that are clean, crisp, and intu­itive­ly drawn so as to make the job eas­i­er for the next design­er who has to touch my work. As I con­tin­ue to read and watch tuto­ri­als from…

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White Supremacy in America and me.

June 28, 2015 5 Comments

It’s easy for us, the white chil­dren of the Col­or­blind Gen­er­a­tion, to con­tin­ue to focus on indi­vid­ual prej­u­dice while deny­ing sys­temic oppres­sion. It’s how we were raised. It’s how we were taught. Sure­ly, we are inno­cent. Sure­ly, we don’t ben­e­fit from white suprema­cy. Sure­ly, we don’t per­pet­u­ate it.

And yet, white suprema­cy is alive and thriv­ing in Amer­i­ca today. It exists as a sys­tem, per­haps even more than as a skin col­or. It rewards not only those who work to sup­port the sys­tem, but also those who do noth­ing to impede it. Those who sit silent­ly in the face of oppres­sion. Those who step up and affirm the sys­tem that oppress­es them. Those who don’t even think to ques­tion the sto­ries we’re told about white­ness, black­ness, and our place in the world.

White suprema­cy cre­ates an envi­ron­ment where gen­er­a­tion after gen­er­a­tion are unin­formed about the vio­lence it takes to main­tain their safe­ty, then rewards them for nev­er ques­tion­ing what they’re told.

White suprema­cy cre­at­ed the envi­ron­ment that allowed me to reach the age of 21 with­out ever ques­tion­ing it. For decades, I did noth­ing to try to stop it.

I ben­e­fit from white suprema­cy.

And if you’re a white Amer­i­can — so do you.

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Game Over Series Announcement

June 22, 2015 2 Comments

I’ve start­ed a new cal­lig­ra­phy and illus­tra­tion series called “Game Over,” in which I cal­li­graph and illus­trate icon­ic death and game over screens from var­i­ous video games. I have two fin­ished right now, and am work­ing on sev­er­al oth­ers. I’ll be sell­ing the orig­i­nals on Etsy once the series is com­plete, and sell­ing prints on…

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Redeeming Love Review: God’s Truth

June 21, 2015 9 Comments

Intro­duc­tion to the series, along with an overview and analy­sis of the pro­logue. Trig­ger warn­ings for top­ics includ­ing dis­cus­sion of child­hood sex­u­al abuse and sex traf­fick­ing.

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Self-Care and Why I Wear Makeup

June 15, 2015 0 Comments

At long last, I’ve been able to record and pro­duce anoth­er episode for Self-Care Artist! Self-Care Artist is an ongo­ing con­ver­sa­tion about body pos­i­tiv­i­ty, make-up, men­tal health, social issues, and self-care in gen­er­al. I hope you enjoy! Please sub­scribe and com­ment if you like it, and let me know what you’d like me to talk…

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Of masculinity & abusive breeding grounds.

June 8, 2015 0 Comments

This post orig­i­nal­ly appeared on Ply­mouth Brethren Dropout on May 26, 2014. An updat­ed ver­sion appears below. It’s been just over a year since the tragedy at Isla Vista that prompt­ed the orig­i­nal pen­ning of this post. So many things have hap­pened since then that illus­trate the points made here­in, includ­ing but not lim­it­ed to: the large­ly…

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New illustration! Wonder Woman

June 3, 2015 0 Comments

Not my usu­al illus­tra­tion style, but I had a lot of fun with this. Thanks to Design Cuts, as always, for the won­der­ful Man­hat­tan Dar­ling font!

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A tale of male entitlement.

May 29, 2015 6 Comments

This com­plete stranger, in the span of 90 sec­onds, demon­strat­ed that he felt enti­tled to a) my atten­tion, b) my pos­ses­sions, c) my good­will, and d) my body. 

My clear ret­i­cence for social inter­ac­tion didn’t mat­ter. My body lan­guage regard­ing my pen­cil didn’t mat­ter (con­sid­er­ing he lit­er­al­ly pried it from my hand). My dis­in­ter­est in stroking his ego was the high­est affront, to which he respond­ed by touch­ing me with­out my con­sent (and pro­long­ing his touch when I phys­i­cal­ly pulled away).

Peo­ple. Don’t do this. It’s super not okay. Respect per­son­al bub­bles. Don’t force peo­ple to inter­act with you when they’re giv­ing every indi­ca­tion that they’d real­ly rather not. And don’t take their stuff while they’re using it — that’s kinder­garten lev­el stuff. AND DON’T TOUCH ANYONE WITHOUT THEIR CONSENT FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS GOOD IN THIS WORLD.

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The journey in and out.

May 15, 2015 5 Comments

There had always been a dis­con­nect between what I was taught and what I observed and expe­ri­enced, between blind faith in invis­i­ble things and repeat­ably testable evi­dence. But as a child, as a teen, even into ear­ly adult­hood, I wasn’t giv­en the words to rec­og­nize the dis­con­nect, or even the tools to inspect or decon­struct my beliefs to see if there was any mer­it to them out­side of want­i­ng them to be true.

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